Dramatic

        Okay, so the last post was a little dramatic.  I just read it again, and it might of made me sound a little crazy/ depressed.  I want to make it clear... I'm not.  I was just upset, but I'm over the things that got me sad, so I can move on now :)  My sports are going good and I think I have been eating healthier, so there you go, I am continuing my list.  One thing that's weird is I've been so busy that I haven't watched that much TV  and because of that I have actually lost interest in a lot of shows.  Its weird, when you have a lot of time you get more invested in certain things, but when you don't have that much time, I guess you realize that they aren't important.  Huh, who would have guessed it?  Currently, however, I am stalling from packing for a mini vacation, and I'm watching some documentary on OWN.   It's kind of weird.  Oh well, I guess I should go pack :)

What Next

I'm done with the "resolutions".  I mean it sounds like they would help or whatever, but they are jut making me feel worse when I don't do them.  At this point, I don't even know what I am so post to be working towards.  My grades are good, but they won't be getting any better, the guy I liked just asked out someone else on Valentines Day and really only talks to me when he needs something, and one of my friends is only using me for rides.  On top of that, I was going to go to a party, but my friend  decided she changed her mind and didn't want me going and never texted me back.  AND I can't even hang out with my real friends, because I'm too busy with sports and school.  So tell me, where in this situation is there anything even remotely positive???  And after this, I'm not feeling very confident, on the contrary actually.  I feel like the biggest idiot in the world.  But I mean, its not like anyone here actually cares.  All of you are just going to think I'm here for attention, but thats not true.  I writing all of this down because if I don't say all of this, I'm going to explode.  I can't tell my friends or family this without feeling pathetic.  I mean don't get me wrong I still feel pathetic, but at least none of you know who I am, so it's a little better.  So what am I so post to do now that everything I was working for is gone or turns out to not even be real?

A Two In One

   Today's post is thankfully a much more positive one than the last.  So I know it's only been three days, but I think I'm doing a good job keeping my resolutions in mind! (But then again, I'm always like this.  I really get into something, but it only lasts a short time before I forget about it.  Hopefully that won't be this though)  
       There's this guy at my school who I kind of like, and instead of just wishing for things to happen, I'm starting to make it happen! Well....kind of.  I mean I texted him that's a start!  And I asked how his hockey team was doing and asked when his next game was because I wanted to go to it with friends.  That's a start right?? And I'm friends with one of the guys on his team, so maybe I'll get him to talk to him for me, which is huge for me because when I have liked people in the past, I have never tried to make anything happen. (Maybe that's why I have never had a boyfriend haha)  So this fits in to taking risks I think, and when I was texting him, I was trying not to over analyze everything he said, so that sort of counts too!! 
And now I have pump up music stuck in my head, because I'm all excited, and I'm checking my phone every few seconds because he hasn't answered yet, and I'm trying not to think what that might mean.  Well, the chat says he hasn't looked at the message yet, so I'm good I hope.
Anyway, I hope everyone had an awesome start to the New Year!  
Check out the awesome song that's been playing over and over again in my head by Timeflies!

Trouble Already

Okay, so I said that I would post back once I had some type of progression (good or bad) about resolutions.  Well, I have some.  I knew they weren't going to be easy, but I'm already having trouble not comparing myself to others, and over thinking everything.  With everyone talking about their vacation and their New Years plans, I start to compare my plans and what I did with what they did, and realize that their plans sound better.  Maybe they lied, maybe the didn't, but I need to stop doing that!!  Also, on the topic of over thinking things, I've re-written this post about 5 times, trying to make sure I didn't come across pathetic or anything, so you people wouldn't get annoyed.  But come on, you don't even know who I am and I don't know you! I really have to work on this.  Oh and by the way, the point of this blog is not to complain or brag about my life at all, but its to write about my life as honestly as I can, so people can see that we share the same problems, or maybe that we don't.  Also, maybe some of you can give me advice?

  Okay, so back on topic.  My resolutions.  Ive decided that if I feel bad about how I sound to myself when I compare myself to other people, that I will list things I do like about my current life (I won't do that here, because that is really obnoxious, but I will say that I got an 108 on my math test today!! woooh!)  Maybe this will work?  I'm hoping :)

On a more positive note, although vacation just ended, only 6 more weeks untill we have another!! Woooh Aruba here I come :)

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everyone!  2012 was fun, but I think 2013 is going to be even better!  I made some resolutions for the new year, and I am going to try really hard to stick to them.  Once I finish something, being to make progress, or struggle (hopefully I won't too often) I'll write about it.  So here are my 2013 resolutions!!

The Beginning

Hi everyone and welcome to personality progression!  I'm not really sure how this is going to work yet.  I was thinking that this is going to document my life as I try to change it, but who really knows?
This might change into something else, and it might not.  Currently, I'm setting out to change certain aspects of my life; my health, and my personality (hence the blog name)  So I hope this blog ends up giving some type of inspiration :)  


To start things off, here are a few things about myself:

I love softball and volleyball
I'm kind of shy
I think I need to eat healthier
I want to stop comparing myself to other people
I want to gain confidence in myself
I am trying to be more studious
I am also trying to expand my groups of friends


Hopefully by the end of this blog I can say different things about myself :)